Two days of FOC work at fren's child care center has proven to be a little too much for my body to take!! Got home to experience some dizzy spells and some gastric discomfort... and ended up vomiting out my lunch!! Wasted... it was a treat from my fren + boss of the center! I guess i pushed myself a little too much for a pregnant woman.. plus it had been a long time since i last worked such long hrs!! Carrying crying infants... feeding active 2 or 3 yrs old... wow is no easy task!! But no regrets volunteerin myself! When u see those angelic and innocent faces, u wun even noe u are tired! LOLZ!! The moment i sat in my fren's car then onli can i feel the tiredness creeping onto me. will my little jovan be as adorable as them?? I hope so wor... cute as baby tom tom and as smart as little Jose! :)
Speakin of Jose... think this little kiddo is the gem in everyone's eyes!! Haha.. he so intelligent for his age!! And he such a fast learner! i was teaching him the sounds of animals.. example cat will meow.. next min.. he was pointing at a picture of a cat and saying " cat goes meow meow!" GOSH! i am impressed! he was also the first one to get up from his afternoon nap... then he went round sayanging his frenz on the cheeks, saying "Get up get up!! Come and play..." GOSH! my heart melted! When the lights were turned on to show tat nap time is over.. he jumped up and say "YEAH! Can play..." LOLz... what a gem... i also starting to wonder shd i name my baby boy jose instead?! LOLZ...
Each time i see those innocent faces, my heart aches for my own baby boy!! He deserves the best but now he can onli settle for the best his mum and dad can offer to him! Perhaps the best he and i can offer is sufficient enough for Jovan to be blessed... guess it is smthing tat i can onli believe and have faith in! At times i feel that i am juz selfish... but perhaps being selfish may benefit Jovan in some way! Sometimes i wonder does he realli care but i am not in a position to judge anything and who am i to interfere?! I should juz stay within my limits and channel my energy to more meaningful things. well.. is is realli easier said than done! I realize that i dun have much tears left for myself... but plentiful for Jovan.. so when will i truely be happy and settled?! Maybe soon ba... when the time comes, i supposed i will noe... :)
Sighz... enough of such disheartened tots!! Maybe my dizzy spells are making me so negative! Argh!! Negative tots go away ah....
Oh my mum FINALLY felt baby Jovan's super kicks!! for the past few attempts, whenever my mum place her hand on my tummy, Jovan stop his kungfu kicking! He play guai guai lor! Then later start his nonsense kicking! WUHAHA... his kicks seems to be getting more powerful each week and definitely more painful! i can also feel my skin stretching with occasional cramps... tummy begin to feel heavy! i realli cannot imagine myself at full term... err.... 107 days to go...
And i dunno what the hell got into my mum last night!! She kept toking about labour pains and what i can expect! i hear till i can almost imagine out the pain and agony physically... my lower body start to have strange cramps! LOLZ... but i'm sure i juz imagining stuff la! a few days ago, my frenz were asking me whether giving birth pain or not?! what e heck... how would i noe! i am a first time mum... well give me 107 days more! i will be able to tell them then... sweats!!!
Before i end this entry... i juz like to welcome my pal back to town! LOLZ... Been staying in France for so long... hence i supposed tis time he is back for good ba! no matter what... WELCOME HOME IS! :)
Okie okie.. i tink i better go have my dinner and later an early night zzz.... hope i wun vomit my dinner out too!! sianz...
Heading spinning... spinning... round and round.... :/
Wee Wee
