Dreaming of The World

Fren's Post

Tuesday, April 27, 2010 12:25 AM

Was browsing thru facebook... and this is what my slkair ex-colleague wrote abt her life and relationships...

"been thinking these past few weeks.. family n frens haf been really supportive towards me, helping me get over the unhappiness.. My focus had always been towards someone whom i shld haf let go long, long time ago.. Was I juz too stubborn or oblivious to notice pple who r sincere n nice to me all these while? Could it be myself, who haf been shutting my own door?"

Am i doing the same thing to myself as well??

Obviously he had moved on... way before Jovan was born... so can't i do so as well..??

I decided to give myself a chance... a chance for a better tml... :)

Shall not close the door... shall not shut the door...

Will make sure the one after him will be worthy of my time and efforts... most importantly... worthy of Jovan... :)

Meaningful

Friday, April 23, 2010 9:23 PM

On this day, God wants you to know...

... that although forgiveness is very hard, it is necessary. Holding onto anger and old hurts hardens your heart and hurts only you. Ask for help in letting go of the anger. Ask to see the situation through the eyes of compassion. Allow yourself to feel the lightness of forgiveness.

How true this messgae can be....

Crush

Thursday, April 22, 2010 9:19 PM

This song juz keep replaying in my head...

David Archuleta is the best american idol ever... :)

Little Girl

Tuesday, April 20, 2010 11:42 PM

Perhaps in his eyes... i will always be a little ger...

How ironic can it be...

Maybe one day he will see me in a different light....

If only that day lies in GOD's plans...

May God bring tat day to me...

I no longer wish... I no longer will feel the disappointment...

Coz all is not within my control...

The situation was never mine to control right from e very start....

Weird Facebook Message

Sunday, April 18, 2010 7:52 PM

As i was blogging my previous entry.. received this weird msg from someone in facebook...

i **** some of the person's personal details!! i am not blogging to embarrassed the person but more of amused abt his way of knowing pple...

Message:

hi .good evening!!!!!!!just wake up from sleep .resting at home right now. bit unwell. how yr weekend ? ??everything arite ?..happy weeked!!!!!!!!! remember eat yr dinner ..................sorry need to tell you something first before we move on is that i a total stranger to you .. . .. can i get to know u as a friend ?let me intro myself to you..... andy **** ** here . singapore chinese guy , age 24 , ht 172 , wt 61 , staying ********* area,working.single ..abt my character.... down to earth ,very soft hearted, tend to always try to put others ahead,don know how to lie and don know how to be cunning.. i don smoke and don go clubbing ...sorry i just a normal looking guy, prefer simple,easy quiet life n peaceful life.quite a aggressive guy when it come to work .me is a taurus guy,left handed , blood ab+ ..do sincerely hope you can give me a chance .i know it rude of me to anyhow send message to you but sincerely hope you give me a chance to know you .sorry .i not the type of guy that love to quarrel or pick up a fight , i believe there always a way out or solution to solve a problem .i quite like cars too ....(automobile) will you mind i younger than you in term of age ?sorry .don like to stress over matter .. sorry .i need to tell you something true .. i don have much friend due to busy work.. hope you can give me a chance to know you more. .sorry i on the move during work so can only reply back your message after work and back home in computer.been working for my company abt two years liao . this job can give mom more allowances . sincerely hope you can sms me at 8*******. . very sorry to disturb you .hope next time can bring you go out eat dim sum and also eat nice food like soya bean . sorry . drink more water . raining season . bring umbrella out .remember eat yr dinner .

Sweats... weird??? err.... err.... 0_0

Catchy Phrases

7:41 PM

:) Finally.... the deadline is today!! Going to e main office for the official training liao... though lookin forward to the real thing, i will surely miss the good and funny times of sitting with my gers... answering mountains of calls and collecting catchy phrases!!! LOLZ...

"BLOODY HELL... U BETTER HOLD THE LINE AH..."

"Young woman... I swear I will write in to the Prime Minister. THIS IS THE WORSSSTTT AFTERNOON OF MY ENTIRE LIFE!"

"Are u testing my patience..??? Are u toyin with me?"

"ANSWER MEEEEEE................"

"I will write to Lee kuan yew to send u all back for re-training...."

WUHAHAHAHA... at the time those words are being said... we can feel our blood boiling... but once all is over... they become our best jokes... :)

Silence is Golden

Saturday, April 17, 2010 10:19 PM

"On this day, God wants you to know...

... that silence is golden. When we are quiet, we can hear God's messages to us. Sometimes these messages may be in the form of subtle intuition. Sometimes it may feel like an inner knowing. Sometimes we may hear a 'still, small voice.' If it feels right in your heart, trust that it is God speaking to you."

This is what HE said....

"when u think of my love... think of ur love for ur child... I love u juz the way u love ur child... though i have a nation of children... i have onli one you... hence...

YOU ARE SPECIAL!"

Taking A Step Back

Tuesday, April 6, 2010 8:34 PM

Taking a step back...

Take a moment to reflect...

Review my life....

If i can turn back time...

I wish i had been wiser...

And now...

I juz hope to start anew...

Looking forward to start my life all over again...

Only GOD knows what my heart desires...

So may HE grant me my wishes and send me and Jovan on our way...

Personal Space

Sunday, April 4, 2010 8:22 PM

Getting tired... getting exhausted....

I dun wan to explain anymore....

Perhaps is right... perhaps is wrong...

Perhaps i am realli a half-hearted person...

But somehow.. at this moment... it does not realli matters anymore...

Guess i need a break... need my space...

Will be out of action for awhile...

Hopefully i will be back to my old self in no time...

No 89757

1:40 AM

If onli HE allows...

May i find my Bian Hao 89757...

:) where is he?!!!

TGIF

Friday, April 2, 2010 8:40 PM

:) Thanks God Is Friday....

Wat a wonderful friday it has been so far! :)

dropped off jovan at e dad's place and off to cell's TGIF event! go over to "steal" some pointers from e experienced ones! lolz... well... hope tml TGIF event will be a blast! may GOD shows his works and wonders through us..

upon watching the testimony video and hearing wee fang's testimony on how she accepts Christ.. :) had many tots running through my head! Realized i am still as sensitive as before! i tear very easily and it kind of irritates me... lolz...

This phrase used to be my favourite line when someone complain to me abt their lives... "LIFE IS NEVER FAIR! WE JUZ HAVE TO ACCEPT!" To some extend i still agree with it! Some are born in places that are sheltered from natural disasters... some are born into proverty... none of us have choice... so is life fair?!!!

During the G12 conference... this tot hit me!

LIFE IS FAIR THROUGH THE EYES OF GOD!

Using a secular point of view, we human beings will always feel life is not fair! Y both pple work equally hard but onli one got promoted at work? Y he can drive a car while other can onli ride a bicycle (LOLZ... bad comparison...)?? However from the spiritual angle... Through the eyes of GOD, life is fair and equal for all!

why so?!

I strongly believe GOD wun give a task impossible for us to accomplish or overcome! It will appear difficult for us to handle... :) it may seem tat our live is nothing but hardship... but is thru such things that we can understand GOD's ways and the lessons we learnt will be deeply rooted into our lives! GOD is fair as HE understands each and another one of us and wat we are capable of as HE is our creator! HE is the FATHER who mould us in his image hence HE has every right to make choices for us for HIS interests are always for the best.

one of the things i learnt in year 2009 is... harder the lesson learnt, the more e brokeness will be and eventually will lead to higher committment to the LORD! GOD calls upon imperfect pple to create perfection in them!

Some pple say... once a vase is broken, no matter how carefully or patient we are in glueing back the pieces, the vase will nv be the same! I agree totally... coz when a person is broken and later he is restored in GOD's name, he is wun be the same as before as he is REBORN! who says broken-ness cannot be a beautiful thing! If living n hardship is smthing that constantly reminds me of GOD's ways, then is smthing i will glady accept! :) When someone is reborn... GOD gave him a new identity... a new purpose... that is y i found a name that i instantly fell in love with.

Renee... means REBORN!

it will be a name i would love to adopt when i get baptized! :) when wil tat be... i am still waiting for a sign... :)

May i always walk in his ways.... Amen!