it is a freaking hot day and despite sitting in an air-con room, i am still perspiring like hell!!! The dry and hot weather had been giving me some dizzy spells which is kind of irritating! Perhaps also due to the fact preggy woman have diluted blood vessels in their lower body so brain lack of blood! aiyah... either way, the dizzy spells are getting on my nerves.
Feel like zzz-ing but fear of zzz-ing too much in the afternoon will give me zzz-less nights! sigh... tryin to find a balance, strength, determination and confidence to get out of this situation!! may GOD help me... give me the faith to pull thru!
Thanks HOPE! showered me with the attention and help... from endless toks to meeting ups to getting information to aid me make the best decision in this life crisis of mine. i am realli grateful and the onli way i can repay them is for myself to be strong... be that little MISS INDEPENDENT that i used to be.
Thanks to my twinnie for finding some useful articles that i can relate to!!! will read and analyze... i have to say... some of the researches are pretty interesting!!! being a dumb dumb like me have to read a few times to catch what it means! i guess coz they are psychological articles hence more difficult to understand.... hmmm...
My dependency is causing a strain in someone i love dearly and i am very sad that it had contributed to the tear of the r/s! i hurt him, myself and our little thing. realli hope to make things right... and be rationale!! choices are what i have to do... hard as they are, i cannot avoid! for the best or for the worse, i must not dwell on negativity but focus on what i can do to save the situation and i guess it starts from within. i have to be strong enough for myself so i can be strong for others...
Juz now received a shocking and sad news from a church fren. It is very disheartening to hear such a shocking news and being at the crossroads of my life, i feel more! my heart goes out to the couple and my sincere prayers for them. life is so precious... i hate myself to even tink of hurting such a precious thing... i realli do...
Sighz at this very moment... i am fighting with myself... an internal battle that there is no win.. onli loses awaits...
To HIM: Stay Strong... like i am trying to be....
Wee Wee
