Sunday, March 28, 2010 8:08 PM
Today marks the last week of my first week at IRAS! :) New job to a brand new start is what i needed... well... only one word to sum up the past 7 dayz... TIRED! simply utterly totally exhausted! It is realli mo joking matter! Guess my empty period of not working for a yr has proven to me tat i realli need to get myself momentum back on track! Long working hours... naughty Jovan... Lack of zzz.... not time to read those work notes... all these make me treasure my weekends more! GOSH... thanks God next week is onli a 4-days working week! :p
Work is pretty okie! Nothing much to say... it is still early! :) juz wanna do my best and get my salary... LOLZ!!! i dunno y... dun realli have much expectations when it comes to work liao.. unlike in the past when i am in SGH or Silkair! Perhaps priorities had changed! now is mainly on Jovan... :)
Before the start of my new work... I am realli to be able to atttend an inspirational conference by the Church! :) I am realli inspired by all the powerful and motivating sermons by great pastors all over the world! so messages had touched me in a personal level... and somehow made me feel more at ease in my situation as i learnt to lean on HIM more! Had some tots on life itself and where GOD plays HIS role in it!
There are several moving sermons at the G12 conferenc... but one tat brought tears to my eyes was by Pastor Wes Richards where he shared abt his experience abt losing his wife 7 yrs ago. i can feel for him though our situations are different! Is that momentarily feeling of LOST IN DIRECTION and bitterness that i could relate too...
Life is never a bed of roses... and some of us juz haf to learn it e hard way...
Thursday, March 18, 2010 9:29 PM
Jovan had started his moo moo adventure at his nanny's place... so far so goodie! he seems to be alright with the arrangement! :) and the nanny seems to be doing a great job!! when he's back home with me.. he appear to be super active and happy! perhaps he miss his mummy! Happy...
:) went to open a joint account with jovan today! :) deposit all his hong bao $$$ into the account and guess what.. he is even richer than me! sweats... and he is onli 5 months old!! Rich little kiddo lor...
Well... once again... i was mistaken to be married again! though i noe my current status is something out of the norm, i do appreciate to be asked abt my status first before filling in my details...
the lady at POSB (she is a very nice and polite lady!!!) self assumed that i was married with a baby boy.. she keyed my status as MARRIED in her computer database! when she gave me the hardcopy to double check.. there were 2 mistakes! i wun work at IRA... but at IRAS! and i am SINGLE! i corrected her on e spot and she was "oh!" and from then onwards she din dare to see me in e eyes! :) i can tell she was embarrassed to make such a blunder... well she not e first one!
when people came to noe abt it.. they either will be paiseh or give me an ERRRR look! used to it... does not really bother me anymore...
Maybe i will receive other kind of weird look... if i get marry and i say that Jovan is not my husband's kid... :/ perhaps they will think i am a bitch.. doesn't matter either! As long as GOD knows... it does not matter if the whole world mis-understood me...
Therefore... lesson learnt.. always ask! never self assumed things... :)
Tuesday, March 16, 2010 11:01 PM
After so long...
Today i felt.. i am mentally drained... emotionally worn out... physically tired.. spiritually dried up....
I dislike the uncertainty in me...
I dislike the expectations i have on others...
I noe this world is never fair... u wun get back what u invest in...
But this fact is realli making me very exhausted...
I need time...
Sunday, March 14, 2010 2:01 AM
I'm now in my own room...
:) Since Jovan is back at Senja wif his Dad...
I was thinking it would be nice to zzz in my own room once in awhile...
This is the first time i'm zzz-ing in my room since i delivered..
As i was lyin on my familiar mattress and pillows...
Memories seems to come back and haunt me...
Happy memories... hopeful memories... Sad memories.... angry memories... disappointed memories... painful memories... forgiving memories...
Is like all in a big melting pot...
Though it is overwhelming... part of me noe is different...
Coz GOD is still telling me.. GOD is still echoing in my head... "It doesn't really matter!"
Saturday, March 13, 2010 9:29 PM
Courage is....
going from failure to failure without losing enthusiasm.
– Winston Churchill.
Courage doesn’t always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, “I will try again tomorrow.”
– Mary Anne Radmacher
:) Got these quotes from Eileen's blog! In love with these meaningful words...
This is my Spiritual family that gave me back my courage!
from left to right... Val, Fat me.. (hahaha!!), Wee Fang, Eileen (my cell leader), Sim wee (cell leader), Dora, Mary, Shiya and Su juan! :) love them all...
The fren, sister, ex-schoolmate, ex-band mate, ex-house mate blah blah... to sum up... HAHA my other half!! :) WUHAHAHA....
Friday, March 12, 2010 11:55 PM
Juz ended my conversation with a cell member...
Having mixed feelings abt what we discussed...
Perhaps I think too much...
I decided... I shall not ponder.. I shall not let it haunt me...
"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble."
- Matthew 6:34
Before i end off.. juz like 2 say...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YAYA!!! :)
7:43 PM
Today... i let go of the last few bits of my past...
I said goodbye to my high-flying life...
I finally took courage to state my stand and i am glad he respected my decision...
There isn't much past left to pull me back anymore...
Letting go seems to be getting easier with time...
Thursday, March 11, 2010 4:41 PM
:) Today is Thurs and i had a busy week so far!! but it keeps me going... i always love e busy life! In e past... have to deal with school stuff, flying schedules, driving lessons, the "then bf" and frenz! well... now the list has changed... things changed and now i have someone new on my list... Jovan jovan jovan... love him to the core!
Before i start to even rattle on n on abt my week... here are some pictures i took! completely, totally and utterly a-d-o-r-a-b-l-e...
Jovan and his toys!! gosh he has a lot of toys!!! wuhahaha!
drinkin his milk! cheeky fellow.. he simply loves e camera!
Jovan looks a little shock when i planted the kiss on his chubby cheeks... hehe...
Like mummy... like son... winks....
One thing i like abt jovan.. he is not camera shy!! whenever he sees the camera, he will naturally look at it and smile! smart baby...
okie dorkie.. picture gallery over! now is back to my rattling... :p
went gym on mon! finally hit the gym... :) but the gym is kind of creepy especially when i was all alone in the gym!! think is juz my wild imgination.. i was felt like someone is watching me! eeks.. scary...
Tue went pedicure with shiya at WAX IN THE CITY Orchard Point branch and dinner!! can u believe it.. my first time doing pedicure!!! :) all thanks to shiya for the treat... the end results is superb! realli like the colour but the service itself sucks to the core! Think the ger who did for me is realli not professional at all! did e pedicure halfway can juz disappear for some time! think she went somewhere to "eat snake" or for a puff ba! then when she returned to apply the colour... she din use the spongy thingy between the toes so when i walk over to the dryer, i accidentally rub some of the colour off! kind of irritated but din say much coz partly is also my fault... i shd have asked her to use it! but somehow i tot is a common sense it to use... sighz.... nvm nvm! then shiya informed one of the sales staff and he say he will get one of the pedicure lady to touch up for me! oops... waited freaking long and then have to requested a second time then someone came! zzz.... and due to all e commotion abt the touch-up, i din realize the cold dryer was not on! i practically place my feet at the dryer for nothing... super pissed!! she din even bother to on for me!!! plz dun tell me tat i am supp to on myself.. what customer service is tat???! Freakin crestfallen with the service.... think next time if i wanna patronise WAX IN THE CITY again, i will try out their other branches!!!
Wednesday is IRAS contract signing day at 10 am! :) the benefits seems cool!! lolz... hope 22 march would be a gd start at work and a fantastic start of a new chapter in my life! :) went for medical checkup at some weird name clinic located at orchard building!! Had to do a chest x-ray again and e doc warned me no more x-ray for this yr!! sigh... dunno how many lungs cells i had damaged!!
In e evening is nanny visitation!! The first time i meet the nanny who is going to be babysitting jovan when i off at work! :) one thing tat came to my mind when i entered her hse was... sparkling clean and white! hahaha... and her hse appears spacious as she dun really have much furnitures or stuff lying ard. :) the nanny herself is nice... very chatty and seems knowledgable when it comes to babies! Saw her 10 yrs old daughter n hubby whom were also very nice! guess jovan is in good hands!! May GOD's protection will be upon jovan as he starts his new adventure in a new environment!
oh did i mention tat jovan started on semi solid food! :) hahaha... he tried apple & mango puree and juz a few hrs ago.. he ate half a bottle of carrot & sweet potato puree!! he seems to love it.. wuhahahaa...
so many adventures me and jovan had done.... and so many more on its way... :) and i noe GOD is overseeing each steps we are taking!!!
Feeling protected....
Sunday, March 7, 2010 12:23 AM
Kind of tired....
Tired of thinking...
Tired of guessing...
I shall not think and leave it in HIS hands....
For only HE knows what my future brings...
In HIM i shall find my peace...
Amen!
Friday, March 5, 2010 2:19 PM
Juz some sentences that set me thinking...
"Love cannot be learned in isolation. You have to be around people - irritating, imperfect, frustrating people..."
- The Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren
Maybe tat is y irritating people are always buzzing ard me... wuhahaha... :p
9:24 AM
This is what he said....
"A guy can sweet talk once or twice but if he reinstate it, then that's e fact.."
How true? Kind of crap to me....
:) On a lighter note...
Had some cam-whoring with Jovan and Sis...
Jovan has new expressions... hahaha...
adorable.... :p
Jovan's latest expression! Biting his lower lips... hmmm...
This pic is juz for fun... i juz realize i never post up any pictures of me during pregnancy!
A super preggy me at cineleisure level 9... all set to play wii! >_< i was abt 8 mths pregnant then... hahaha... cool?!
Thursday, March 4, 2010 11:15 PM
At times... i am juz amused and amazed on how facts can be twisted in a way tat is totally unlike the original story! When words are passed down from one mouth to e other, the truth is being distorted, meaning been altered and eventually it is a whole different story!
Tat is what happen at my old workplace... app i am currently one of the hottest rumours flyin ard the company! :/ gossips are always ard in an all-female environment.. well hope at least they get the facts right ah!!! sweats....
The joke of the year!! Though it is onli mar... i doubt i will ever find another funniest joke to replace this one...
Rumours tat been flying ard... Jovan is my adopted son! And i am being a kind soul to adopt jovan!
GOSH... how ridiculous can this be!! i wonder who could spread such things... haiz...
well... i wun be going back so i escaped the so-called questioning by ex-colleagues!
Can't wait to start my new job... hopefully will be 22 mar!!
In my 2010 organizer... :)
Monday, March 1, 2010 6:41 PM
:) juz received the confirmation call from IRAS! yesh yesh.. officially been informed tat i got the job and probably will start on March 22! :) Now juz waiting for my medical checkup and contract signing! Praise the LORD!
Besides IRAS, i also received Silkair freelance contract thru registered mail! kind of overwhelmed by the job offers today! Though part of me still desires a flying lifestyle, guess i have let tat go! In life, there are always sacrifices to be made hence shall not pay too much attention to it! :) lookin foward to a new life... and now.. yet another new start! a brand new job...
Have to call in to Silkair and TTSH tml to turn down e offers... kind of paiseh tat i wasted their time and realli hope they can get a more suitable candidate for the positions!
:) Sunday which is juz ytday.. is yet another pig and cow adventure! Jovan's virgin visit to church! LOLZ! things went pretty okie till he poo-ed and cried halfway thru the sermon! i had to keep going in n out of the expo hall.. zzz... however i am glad i brought him to church! :) Guess is GOD's blessing to him.. he been smiling ever since he got home! lolz...
Jovan will be starting semi solid food soon! juz brought a apple & mango puree! think will attempt to feed him wed or thurs morn! hope all goes well... haha...
Attended Joy's bday last wed! had a mini celebration at Tampines mall's Pu Tien chinese restaurant! hmm din noe of such a restaurant till now.. well.. e food is okie! but realli a chinese food lover hence.. find the dishes to be juz okie! :p
Here are some pictures taken on tat day...
The bday ger with her adorable Fye!
Me and little jovan!!! i love jovan to the core....
The whole gang!!! haha and jovan is fast zzz....
Fye's attempt to kiss Jovan! i can juz feel the brotherly love...
Mua....
cks...!!!! lolz...
Brotherhood... :)
Wee Wee
