Monday, September 28, 2009 5:19 PM
Sighz.. 3 days of Formula one... gone juz like tat! :/ spent mths looking forward to this event and in a wink of an eye... MUMMMY! IS OVER!! SCV plz... i wanna watch japan F1 race!!!!!! Argh... having F1 blues now...
CONGRATS to Lewis Hamilton!!! :) Woo Hoo... it was a good and solid race for him with no mistakes! he practically left all the commotions and mistakes for the drivers behind him! Sighz... heart ache for Rosberg and heart ache for Vettel!! Those penalty pitstop drive thru realli pulled them back esp Rosberg!! Lucky Button Button... still manage to get some pts!! :p
juz now my sis and i were toking about Lewis hamilton and his gf.. nicole from pussycat dolls! i told her nicole is about 7 yrs older than lewis and she dun believe!! sweats... dun doubt pregnant woman when it comes to gossips coz they have plenty of time to do such research! evil luff... true enough... lewis is 24 yrs old and nicole is 31 yrs old! (n_n)V!!! by the way, i think lewis hamilton has minnie mouse ears, not mickey mouse! Y? of coz due to his ears and i realize he has super long eye lashes, juz like minnie mouse! WUHAHAHAHA.... okie i am juz being lame!
HAHA i got the info from wikipedia so u noe... there are many other links to other drivers so went to check it out! GOSH... nico rosberg is onli 24 yrs old!!!!!!! but he looks much older than tat! surprisingly, hahaha he looks very SHUAI! now my laptop wall paper is Rosberg!!!
It used to be Piggy... Jovan's nanny! LOLz.... anyway, i think Nico Rosberg looks like a young Ronan Keating (Boyzone lead singer) or Leonardo Dicaprio!!?? aiyah.. all shuai ge la! :p
Saturday, September 26, 2009 11:06 PM
Formula One qualifying rounds over!!!! Lewis Hamilton got pole position.. Yippee!! Hope he will make good use of the lead.. so looking forward to tml's actual race! :)
i juz wanna mention this... if u guys notice that there were a few jokes made on the Renault Team during the practice sessions ytday and today's qualifyin round! I find it funny but perhaps to Renault fans, it was kind of rubbing salt into their wounds.
Comment 1:
During the practice session 1, Renualt French rookie that replaced Nelson Piquet Jr, Romain Grosjean crashed his car at the exact same place Piquet deliberately crashed his car last yr during Singapore F1 2008. The commentenders sounded like Grosjean purposely crashed his car too! was kind of irritating... Come on.. he is a newbie! Give him a break...
Comment 2:
During practice session 2, there was this F1 fan that send his qn regardin why the Renault team are still wearing the ING uniform when ING has withdraw their sponsorship with immediate effects. The commentenders then said, (not the exact words but the meaning of their conservation is close!) "yeah ING did withdraw their sponsorship and is not appropriate for them to wear the suit. the reason y they have to wear it coz they have nothing else more to wear, unless they go topless but i dun think in singapore is allowed..." i find the comments amusing but sad for the Renault team.. haiz...
Comment 3:
Juz now during the qualifying round, Fernando Alonso drove passed the turn tat Piquet had crashed his car and the commentenders name tat area as Piquet's corner!sweats.. the joke continued..
Sighz... guess it will be this yr sinagpore F1 favourite joke...
Tuesday, September 22, 2009 7:07 AM
Argh... i can't zzz the whole night...
Can't stand the hardening and stretching of my huge tummy...
I feel like vomiting... i can feel the gastric travelling up my throat...
Burning sensation simply irritates me...
I swear i tot i was going to burst last time...
The contractions had intensified... kind of painful...
GOSH... Jovan... Mr Niu Niu... are u coming???
Pop Pop??
Monday, September 21, 2009 5:05 PM
Today is a public holiday... but it does not realli concern me! Wuhahaha everyday is a holiday to me... but is not realli a gd thing!! Have too much time at hand... time will pass slowly... TOO SLOWLY! Long weekend holidays for many though... :)
Well.. last week went by quite fast!!! Monday evening is my usual checkup at Loyang point... doc say anytime i can pop!! pop pop lollipop!! Gave me all my hopsital admission stuff and blood test results... teach me what 2 do if Jovan decides to pop before my next appt!! having occasional cramps and contractions which were actualli false alarms of labour! Doc say u will noe de.... but plz i first time mum, i can't tell what cramps and pain belong to what! to me.. they are all the same until the day i realli pop! Wuhahahaha....
My doc seems to develop a personal liking to jovan's ears and his THING! u know... the thing tat separate e male and female species and i am not toking about boobs! Guys have boobs too... but smaller in size onli!! Once again he printed out a scan of jovan's thing which looks like a pear shape!! lolz... mini pear! shd i post it up? but jovan's modesty at stake?!! Hmm... better not.... lolz...
wed evening... Meet up with a church leader at raffles city for dinner!! :) had thai express... yum yum...
Attended the dead sea scrolls exhibition at the ARTS HOUSE on fri with shiya and church frenz! Nothing much to it as onli abt 3 or 4 scroll fragments are on displayed and the rest are ancicent bibles of different era and languages. i could not realli feel the excitement as most of the church pple did.. perhaps i was more caught up in tryin to avoid pple from banging into me and protectin my big tummy! lolz... but there was a pleasant surprise! i saw a sec sch classmate of mine!! we were not realli close pals in sec days but it still feels great to see her again and of coz, like everyone who sees me now are taken aback with my huge tummy! we din chat much coz she was with her family and there were simply too many pple in the exhibition room... i have to stick wif the church group in order not to get lost too! Kind of worn out by the end of the day... like my sec sch fren said.. "u are onli 3 weeks away from delivering! can't believe u are here!!!" Wuhaha... well believe it pple... i am not ur ordinary pregnant woman!! i am the super active preggy woman!! Even the exhibition speaker could not stop starin at my 8 mths plus tummy... sha la la...
Sat at von's place!! i am on a secret mission... hahaha.... hanging out with my sis and poly frenz at von's place was fun! :) supper at bedok mac with wee is proven sinful... lolz... coz i can feel the fats piling on! or is it jovan absorbin my chix nuggets??!! Hmmm....
Sun attended church... was kind of excited coz there was a mini concert and sermon conducted by an Australian church call the Paradise Church! :) The music was great but din realli enjoy the sermon coz the australia pastor was speakin kind of too fast for me to catch! oops...
Sun afternoon was companied by once again wee n von! they came by my hse to continue our secret mission! :) sha la la... what mission.. i am not telling... :/ actualli wanted to go block 85 for dinner (yum yum sting ray!!!) but i fall zzz... apparently i am not super woman! Bleah! ended up placing online orders for pasta mania home delivery which took a freaking more than an hr to reach my hse! we onli had dinner ard 9 pm! geeks! Sighz... guess i too tired by the time sun arrived!! was experiencing off and on cramps and tat freaked von n wee out!! they tot i was going into labour... honestly, i am also freaked out! wuhahaha.... the funniest thing was wee called her mum to ask how does those labour contractions felt like!!! well... we can onli conclude... i am poppin soon!
Eh... did i juz summarized my entire week of events?! lolz.. i think i did! well.. evidence of having too much time at hand?!! haha...
OH i have to say smthing... go catch the movie THE UGLY TRUTH! :) is hilarious and i love it!! gorgeous actress and sexy actor.. i din noe the actor, Gerard Butler is the one tat acted in 300!! Ya know... WE ARE SPARTANS!!!! lolz... came across his profile in one of the magazines i read recently! 39 yrs old scottish lawyer turn actor... tat explains his accent! and i juz adore his crooked smile... imagine he can win a case using his witty charms and killer crooked smile??! okie okie.. i am juz kidding! :p
The Ugly Truth... must see...
Well now is for some random pictures...
Shiya bought a Kiss Dinosaur newborn set and a towel set for jovan! :)
My sister's school notes! She drew the pictures coz she was bored during her lecture! :) fat dino = bf... evil moo moo = jovan.. wuhahahaha...
This is my sister! chio right?? wuhahahaha...
My poly besties!! The top pic was taken in HK 2 yrs ago!! The bottom 2 photos.. can u imagine that i was already expecting jovan in these pic!! Left pic is with vonnie when i am 4 mths preggy and the right pic with wee wee when i am onli a week preggy... OH... And i can't believe i am saying this!! i miss my silkair uniform!!!
PS: I hope for more positive vibes in this brand new week...
Sunday, September 20, 2009 12:36 AM
Sighz... once again i feel like a big rubber ball...
Kena kick here and there... pass around all over the place...
Got reminded about old wounds... feeling unwanted....
Hope they can stop forcing me...
I dun wan go to a place with unfamiliar faces...
I dun wan to relate my story to strangers all over again...
I dun wan to zzz on an unfamiliar bed...
I juz wanna have some peace and security...
Plz... stop pushin me...
Wednesday, September 16, 2009 11:13 PM
Finally it rained... after so many days of hot and humid weather!! But bad timing for the rain to pour coz it happened when my sis and i were abt to leave e hse! sweats... but gotta use the Moo Moo Umbrella that wee and von got for me from BKK! will take a pic of e moo moo umbrella and post it up soon... hehe!! Nevertheless, even have umbrella also cannot withstand the power of nature! One small umbrella to shield an oversize preggy woman and a ger carryin a big bag and lappy bag??! NO NO... bad idea and simply chaotic! Both of us were soaked from head to toes when we boarded the mrt... sighz... let's not say Jovan coz he is always soaked in my aminotic fluid! LOLZ....
Came to know that there is a guide book for single mum tat was launched on the 9th sept by the woman wing of NTUC! in the newspaper report of Straits Times, they will distribute 2,000 copies of the book to agencies and family service centres (FSC)!! Spent the whole afternoon getting numbers of FSC and giving them a call... all gave me negative answers like "We are not linked to NTUC!" or "I have not been told about the arrival of such guide book..." so frustrating!!! ended up sendin an email to NTUC itself... hope can receive a positive response soon!
As i was lookin for information online, i came across this website tat is set up by 2 single mums! :) i enjoyed exploring their site but what caught my attention was this section...
http://www3.ntu.edu.sg/home2004/foos0010/flyinsolo/birthcert.htmlTheir responses were simply funny!! i think they are juz not into the idea of having the father's name in the birth cert! i had a gd luff... at least i noe i am not alone pondering over such stuff!
Besides surfing the net for single mum stuff... i also had been quite active in Facebook! i signed up for an account years ago.. but is onli till now tat i finally decided to learn to use this website! i practically had 90 over invitations to play games, receive online gifts, take quizzes etc thru Facebook! Well... spend some time ignoring most of it coz the invitations were super long time ago!!
Came across an ex-silkair crew facebook account! She left the airline due to personal reasons which i rather not mention here without her consent. She is a single mum too... had many ups and downs in her life and i am juz glad she is happily attached now. Well... i must say.. LOLZ... the guy has the looks but i am sure after what she had been thru, are his inner qualities that capture her heart! :) But what caught my attention in her profile was the Proverbs 3:5-6 (bible)!! it was the exact verses i took a personal liking and seek strength in when i was going thru the lowest time of my 25 yrs! As i was telling my frenz, the hurt and sorrow in juz one yr of 2009 is so much more intense than my 24 yrs on earth added up!
I am living through a weird family environment... i braved thru a pretty dramatic childhood... i picked myself up from a sucky JC A levels outcome... i held on strong thru the last few yrs of my unwell dad... i accepted my dad's passing on... but none of these prepared me for what had happened this yr! how life changing 2009 had been... started out with a life growing inside me and soon it will end with a life outside of me...
Too many events that everything juz spinned out of control... i can't find any reasons for anything... tat is when these verses came to me...
Proverbs 3:5-6 >>>>>
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding;
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He shall direct your paths."
Wednesday, September 9, 2009 6:33 PM
Silkair is recruiting... hahaha.. after so long...
I see it as a hope of me returning back to silkair next yr...
Hiring = economy picking up = need more crew...
Fingers cross!!
LINK:
http://siva-sg.jobstreet.com/_ads/sg/jobs/2009/9/default/20/2141634.htm?fr=J
All e best for those who are trying.. :)
Tuesday, September 8, 2009 6:10 PM
Written by Robert Frost (1915)
THE ROAD NOT TAKEN
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
One of my all-time favourite poem...
I always wanted my life to be exciting and a journey full of learning...
And yes, at the end of the day, i will still choose the road not taken...
Though there are times i feel pressurized to do so...
And there are issues that i cannot change but juz had to accept...
However i realize everyone or every matters have a choice to decide what to accept...
Juz onli i can't face up to some issues if i choose e option...
Am i a coward or am i brave?!
I also dunno....
Sunday, September 6, 2009 9:17 PM
These lines in the movie set me thinking...
"If someone pray for patience, you think GOD will give them patience? Or give them the opportunity to be patient?
If they pray for courage, does GOD give them courage or give them the opportunity to be courageous?
If someone pray for the family to be close , do you think GOD will zap them with warm fizzy feelings or the opportunity to love one another?"
Do they make sense? :)
Thursday, September 3, 2009 10:28 PM
Have you ever take a moment in ur daily life to notice or realize little details about urself, ur life style, ur habits... or recognize the changes in yourself?!! i manage to make mini mini discoveries about myself since i conceived Jovan... *smirks*
#1 discovery =
i dun mean to sound crude or what... is juz smthing i realize about my bathing habits! :p in the past, i realize i always like to begin soapin from my neck and shoulders but now.. perhaps my tummy is too eye-catching, i realize the shower cream will go straight to my belly first! wuhahaha.. and i can spend minutes soapin my tummy in a circular movement! think bigger surface area ba.. lolz...
#2 discovery =
I am FAT! :/ the other day i was at the mrt station, me and yaya are chasing the train! i walked past those reflective surface (ya know those surfaces that show ur overall figure but not ur features!!) and realize... i look like a HUGE egg with 4 sticks attached to it! 4 sticks refer to my arms and legs! gosh... i din realli pay attention to my body change! i noe i am rounder and fatter... but that huge egg image stayed in my head! eeks...
#3 discovery =
I have more hair on my head! LOLZ... i always have very limpy, oily and fine hair but i realize during my pregnancy, my hair dun seem tat flat anymore!! Hmmm y so? During pregnancy, the body will produce some kind of hormones and actualli able to give expecting mother a more radiant look and more healthier hair! Cool... but will start to lose hair during confinement! PLZ.. i dun wan...
#4 discovery =
i cannot see my feet when i stand up straight!! Rowie asked me the other day whether can i see my feet... kind of a weird qn but i experiment to let her noe the answer! i stood up straight.. and i can't see my two feet due to my tummy! HAHA.. i told her, "i can see my feet when i stretch my feet out.." Rowie say not counted.. lolz...
#5 discovery =
I tend to giggle a lot!! i can juz sit there in a daze and giggle!! er.. dun ask me y.. i also dunno!! unexplained preggy symptoms of mine...
Wuhahaha... tat's about it... can't realli think of others liao.. Hmmm... so i might as well juz share some pic of Jovan's clothes! :) the clothes are all 3 - 6 mths then Jovan are able to wear!! all over the world! Wuhahaha... i think Jovan will be super shuai boy when he reaches 3 mths old...
from Taiwan!!
from Thailand!! (tat shd be wee's arm.. lolz...)
from Australia!!
And many other clothes from the States... but all at Jovan's daddy side! haha think will have to let Jovan to model them for us... :p
BUT before i end this entry... i have to introduce u all to PIGGY! Jovan's
nappy nanny.. Look how on PIGGY is!! Holdin on to his semi solid food liao...
winks winks...
Wednesday, September 2, 2009 7:08 PM
Wuhahaha... i always treasure me and Jovan's "bonding time" which is 6 am in the morning to 12 noon mid day!! That is when he is zzz-ing and i am zzz-ing... so we are bonding in our dreams! Other than tat... we are like getting on each other's nerves ba!!
Day time.. he likes to zzz... but i will walk away... poke him... haha....
Night time... i like to zzz... but he will kick.. punch me... haha...
Then after 8 months... i realize me and him have smthing in common! Bedtime from 6 am to 12 noon! :) Finally we have reached an agreement...
I think Jovan had juz experienced his "first attack" from his mummy! WUHAHAHA... juz e other day, i was lying down on my mattress readin books! i suddenly felt a funny irritation on my left side... i looked and saw something stickin out of my tummy side! it looks like a small fist... shd be Jovan's hands! Immediately, i grab it! LOLZ... the little fist shook a bit then retreat...
I am showing Jovan who is the boss when he is born... Evil luff...
AND one more thing...
VON AND WEE... Welcome back home!!! Though physically i can't go Bkk with u gers, my shopping spirits are with ya!! :) Glad u gers had a great time...
Tuesday, September 1, 2009 11:01 PM
Now is already September... In another 3 mths time we will be saying goodbye to 2009 and welcoming a brand new year of 2010! At times i juz can't believe so many things can occur in one year... life changing events.... things i choose to give up.. things i am forced to let go... things i have to accept...
I can no longer see things like it used to be...
Coach will no longer be the brand i wanna buy with my first pay...
Sunrise at east coast is something i wun do anymore...
Beagle and Japanese Spitz will not be the breed of dogs i will keep in e future...
Batam will be a state that i doubt i will ever wanna go back...
Mont Blanc will not be a brand i will buy for another...
But there are things i will still hold on...
I still wanna be a fan of Formula 1...
I still love novena chix rice...
I still will watch EPL... but with arsenal and Liverpool in mind (lolz...)
I still wanna collect care bears...
I still dun and wun regret having my baby boy...
All the hurt and pain... memories and regrets... perhaps gave me a new form of independency ba! is not about balancing work, driving lessons, pursuing a degree and maintaining a relationship!
is more about personal growth... controlled feelings and emotions...
I am able to walk around orchard road for hrs by myself...
I am able to attend lessons without a man beside...
I am able to massage my own legs when they are swollen...
I am able to feel what real responsibility is...
One more month... from hundred over days i have bear to today.. 47 days... i will see him soon... he wun be inside me kicking, stretching or having the hiccups! i onli have about one more mth to feel him inside... for the first time in my pregnancy days tat i realli realli hope time dun go by tat fast...
Maybe i am juz being selfish...
May GOD bless me...
7:44 PM
If onli i am stronger... Things would be better...
I am sorry... Brought u down with me...
Wee Wee
