Been thinking a lot... from the moment i open my eyes in the morning till i manage to coax myself to zzz at night... my mind juz seem to float back to unhappy stuff!! my uncertain future! i juz hope i can pull myself together soon! i hate what i had become... i detest the weakling i am now... Torturing myself and torturing him...
Slowly accepting the fact of not settling down... slowly accepting the fact that i wun be wearing a wedding ring... but at least he wants the child! Giving me his words to take care of us.. perhaps is the biggest comfort now... a roof over our heads may be the most practical thing now.
Now.. what i look forward to are off and on outings with frenz and visits back to my east side home! Trying to pack my days with activities so i wun feel tat i am alone... and i feel i'm very blessed with frenz all out to help me pull through this rough times!!! When i am at westside home, there are 2 lovely doggies to accompany me!! Doing funny tricks to keep me entertain... though juz ytday they gave me a fright of my life! They fought in the name of FOOD! Sigh is all my fault.. i should not anyhow throwing the biscuit for them to catch and they ended up fighting coz they both deemed the biscuit is theirs!! shit... Being the weaker one, Momo suffered a cut on her ear while Sparkle had a good spanking!! i am feeling guilty like hell... cried again... sighz...
Wee, Vonnie and Ben... i wan chalet!!! over night chalet also can... i dun care liao!! I believe Jovan will love it... adventures even he is born! evil luff... :) juz have to bear with my slow and clumsy movements... lolz....
I am wishing for better days ahead... Can GOD grant me this wish?! >_<
Wee Wee
