Back at the comfort of my eastside home... though it wasn't the way i wanna go back home, i am glad that i am surrounded by solid support and familiar faces. People i noe that wun hurt me... and able to protect me from the storm.
I kept thinking.. is this the end of the road!? Honestly i dunno what to do, how to feel or which direction to go! No matter which path i choose appears to be gloomy and being at the end of my wits, i no longer have the courage or strength to walk this journey.
As i was standing there... my life spinning out of control and head ain't functioning in the right way, i seems so easy to end everything. It din seem that scary all the way down but once i regain conscious, i wonder what am i doing!! I can onli say i was too of a coward by choosing the easy way out.
I tried to rest my head... catch some zzz but can't... tired but can't zzz! i doubt tonight i will be able to zzz as well! keep thinking... pondering...
No solutions still... clueless...
I am no one's zhu zhu... i am no one's princess.... i am juz me... a mother-2-be to a handsome baby boy! :)
A simple mum wif sweet memories of two cute dogs that played an important role in my life for the past 4 months...
A simple mum that is used to bathe in cold showers...
A simple mum that wash dishes with the tap running at minimum water flow...
A simple mum that remembers to off the main switch of applicances...
Juz a simple person who hopes to be strong for all e right purposes but how to do it... i simply dunno...
Wee Wee
