Been burying myself in the TWILIGHT novel series! got the MPH twilight 4 novels collection on impulse but no regrets at all... i am enjoying every single chapters of the novels. think i read till i get too involved in the story! starting to feel for some characters... and at times, i juz felt i am drawn into the worlds of vampires and werewolves! HAHA kind of disturbing i would say...
As i was reading the chapter about the werewolf sam, emily and leah... i juz felt the story seems to be describing my very own story! Leah is me, he's sam and she's emily... we fit in beautifully into these characters (okie.. juz onli leah is not a pregnant woman!! sweats! lolz!!)... the experience they been through is forgetable yet compared to the story of others, it is so insignificant.
Juz like what yaya told me... when the hurt is fresh, u will find every love song... every love story reflecting ur very own tots or experience! When u stop feeling this way, it can also show tat u have moved on.. or at least not rooted to the past...
Many people say i changed... i become a more careful person... they dislike the pauses between conversations. They felt as if i am choosing my words too carefully... honestly i din realize i am doing tat... or they are juz being sensitive!??
was on msn with a fren... and he said...
fren: Wah... i miss the old u when i see ur pic
me: wuhahaha... referring to my size??
fren: last time u more cheerful... more touchable...
LOLZ... before anything... touchable means approachable ah!! plz dun think the other colourful way! :p
did i realli change to tat bad??!! is smthing i cannot judge myself...
Others say to me...
"if you dun let go, i am afraid u will nv find happiness again..."
"I dun wan u to be weighed down by all these... i still believe u have much more in u to give to the next person u love..."
I keep pondering... i keep thinking.... how to answer them! :) then i realize i can onli give them one answer... JOVAN... :) my happiness... and my true love..
Wee Wee
