If people can't tell tat i am pregnant, it means.. to them... i am juz a super over size, fat and clumsy woman!! i weigh 60.8kg (tat was the weight 2 weeks ago) with a bulging tummy tat looks and feels like a rubber ball... with swollen cheeks and feet... in what way i dun look like a preggy woman!??
Singaporeans can be so ugly at times!! went to unisim to defer my studies for this sem and jan sem 2010 which cost me a freakin hundred over! sighz... nvm abt the $$ coz Jovan worth more than tat! :) anyway, i took the mrt train from bedok to dover... no one gave up their seat for me!! i onli manage to grab a seat at city hall... and mind me, i had a seat coz many pple alighted at that stop and i practically ran to a seat!! sighz... is tiring to carry a 30th week old foetus ard the place! it doesn't help tat he is constantly kicking and stretching... being a pro in doing the kallang wave in my tummy! it also doesn't help tat he can't tell tat his mummy is frustrated with all his movements despite her protests and scoldings... i am sure he will be a brat when he grows up!! i am embracin myself for tat...
For the returnin trip, i manage to get a seat coz my sister boareded the train at boon lay and she helped me book a seat!! LOLZ! tat was very sweet of her!! or else i might have to stand from dover to bedok... and imagine the going home crowds!! eeks!!
As i was saying, i manage to defer my studies but i was unable to defer my accounting paper tat i am due to sit for in oct! shit... the unisim officer say no matter what reason it may be, there is no deferral of a sub paper!! But very unfair... is not tat i dun wanna sit for it! i'm realli scare tat i might go into labour before i could take the paper!! well i will be sending an email to the student mgmt plus my doc letter, we shall see how things go! as what my fren n my mum say... GO FIND MP LOR! i might juz do tat... evil luff! in the meantime, i think i will juz study for the paper but first, i need to get my notes back from senja!! another trip across sin!
Think the last trimester symptoms is realli getting to me!! i get tired very easily... backaches... side cramps... swollen feet... heartburn... vomiting... imaginary labour pains... well, at times i wonder y can't i be a guy!? hmmm... i was readin an article online abt some women getting addicted to being pregnant! i doubt i will be one of them!! lolz... and i have to mention this... given my current situation, at times i would picture myself to be a surrogate mother whom receive a sperm and an egg from unknown donors!! seems very huh... but is juz a weird tot... plz dun pay attention to tat!
at times i juz hope i can bring jovan away to a place where me n my little boy can start afresh! a place where no one knows us and we know no one! but yet again, i can't... too many tings tat hold me back! plus i am sure jovan's god-MOTHERS and one or two god-fathers will hunt me down! wuhahaha... i am sure he will be loved...
GOD has plans... :)
Wee Wee
